Donuts, Dolls, & 'Do's | Atlanta Georgia Storytelling Photographer

“A dolls ability to uplift the human spirit can be immeasurable" - Gayle Wray

When I was a little girl I loved dolls. I would carry mine wherever I would go and care for them with such affection. My collection of dolls was lovingly nurtured by my mother. It was an unspoken love affair between the two of us. I dreamed of the day I would share this love affair with my own daughter. What I never imagined was that my daughters unique spirit would teach me more about myself than I ever thought possible. 

Saturday we went to a good friends birthday party at American Girl. If you've never been I highly advise going at least once in life. This is a fantasy world for little girls that love dolls. Maddie, however, is not one of those girls. She's never shown a lot of interest in them and I'm fairly certain the few she has have been shoved in the bottom of a chest in her room for at least the last 6 months. 

Learning how to let go of who I expected my daughter to be and loving her for who she is has proven to be one of my biggest challenges of parenthood. I often feel I have placed the burdens of my own life and losses on her with too many expectations of her to be my best friend just like I was to my own mother. My heart seems heavy with regret on some days when I feel the weight I've put squarely on her shoulders. 

When I began to put these images together what I saw was her story for the very first time. It wasn't a story about dolls or even a birthday party. It's a story about friendship and doing for others.  A story about growing up and her ability to love everyone for who they are at any given time.  I might still need her. I might always want her by my side. I might need her to forgive me one day and to love me just the way I am. This is her story that started with a gift in a donut bag and ended in doll 'do's...with some comedic antics of little brothers in between.

XO

Day In The Life | September

"You don't make a photograph just with a camera. You bring to the act of photography all the pictures you have seen, the books you have read, the music you have heard, the people you have loved." Ansel Adams

I can't even begin to explain my thanks for all the goodness bestowed on me this month. Some dear friends and storytellers who I've recently come together with on a new collaboration (to be announced soon) have really encouraged me to follow through on putting my daily life out into the world. I mean seriously what is a storyteller if she can't even share her own life on the regular? 

I can't explain why I don't share more. I can think of tons of reasons why I haven't in the past but they are all excuses. The daily excuses of "I'll get to it next month." I even started a Tumblr feed that I could dedicate to this very topic. It's been sitting and staring at me for months. 

Today was a rainy mess outside and it felt like the right time to share this post. No more excuses friends. I'm not sure exactly the details yet, but I'm getting it together. Amongst all the news I have to share in the future and ongoing long term personal projects I'm working on I need to hold onto these days tight. I can feel the winds of change happening in my life and it's important for me to remember these moments and share them with my children when they no longer remember these details themselves. So if you ask me, I don't NEED to do this. I HAVE to do this. Now. In hopes that one day my children will have a living documentary of our life. The good, the bad and everything in between. 

September 26th honestly documented. Atlanta Celebrates Photography Push Pin event at Ponce City Market and our afternoon. This feels like a really great start.